Day #2 without you

I'm feeling so strange these days. I will look every of your pictures in my phone or laptob. I will cry whenever I'm thinking of you. Yes, I cried. Thinking that we will be very far apart. I can no longer see you whenever I want to. I can no longer call you whenever I want to. I can no longer text you whenever I want to. I can no longer have anyone accompanying my day. And nobody is going to scold me for not drinking any plain water or sleeping late at night. I just hope that you will come out from national service as soon as possible. It is just too long. Dont you think so, baby?


Dont you realize I will be so random snapping your pictures when you are in KL? I just want every single move of yours to be remembered. I'm afraid one day I will be forgetting how you eat thing so super slow and I'm already finish. And you will be complaining ' Ei, why you eat so super fast and dont wait for me? ' And how you act cute in front of my camera and only God knows how adorable you were. And how you complain about the slightest details of this and that. Sigh, there is just too much to mention.


Okay, let me see, there is only left 63 days for you to come out. Time just flies, really, it does. I always tell myself to be strong but each time I listen to your sounds record, I just... I just can't imagine that you are not here. And each time I look at your pictures in my camera and phone, I feel like hugging you and never want to let you go.


Remember each time when I hug you? I will say ' baby, I want another time ' and I will say ' I love you ' and you will say ' why there are only three words ? it is not enough for you to represent your love to me' and I will go ' haha! I love you, k ? ' urgghh ! feel like tearing again !


Please remember to take a good care of yourself in there and will never have a chance to even glance at other guy. You promised! I dont care.. And you promised when you are out, you are going to accompany me everyday and we will be going for movie and dinner together. We both promised to save enough money so that we can go for vacation to Pulau Tioman. You promised me!!
Oh, baby, I'm really crying. I can't type anymore. I can't bear the pain. Sigh.


If I could have just one wish, I would wish to wake up tomorrow to the sound of your breath on my neck, the warmth of your lips on my cheek, the touch of your fingers on my chest and the feeling of your heart beating with mine. Knowing I could never find that feeling anymore with any other people other than you, baby.

I love you.