Appearance, does it really matters?

" Oh hey look ! She's so pretty ! Let's go talk to her ! "

" Ew ? She's so ugly. Don't even go near her or you'll turn ugly too. "

Seriously ? Come on. Is appearance all that matters ?

I just don't get it why people like to stick to the popular & good looking people.

What ? You feel proud about that ? Sometimes its not just about appearance.

It's about the heart. So what if the best looking person is your best friend and bitches about you, backstabs you, gossip about you & stuffs like that ?

I just don't get it why so many people like someone which got the looks.

Just the looks & nothing else. Isn't it funny ?

What if someone has the talent but not the looks ? Definitely eliminated. Trust me.

Look in the heart & find what is real & what is fake.

Don't fall into the trap on the outer side.

Like I said, ugly people doesn't mean they have an ugly heart.

They might have the most beautiful heart but nobody bothers to find out.

Good looking doesn't mean everything.

Appearance, is that all ?

Holiday is so much sooner that what I ever expected.

Finally sketch journal is summited. Midterms Test is also over.
Now I am already in a mood for holiday. One thing for sure, I am going back to my hometown this Friday. If you wonder where my hometown is, it is in Sibu, Sarawak,

See?

I have been here in KL for 4 months and I miss every single thing in my hometown now.

I want to sleep on my own bed and in my own room. I want to watch Tv and hang out with friends.

Perhaps I may visit my high school too? I don't know. I miss every slightest details in my lovely hometown.

And the most, I miss my girl the most ! ♥

She has been into the NS for at least 2 months and she loves that place, she misses her friends very much and well, as for me, I don't know where am I in here heart.

She barely even read my blog anymore not to say to leave a status in Facebook.

Sigh..

As Tuck said, I should live in and just follow the flow. Whatever will happen, let it be..

Not to say I never trust her but sometimes it isn't the same anymore. Not much to say actually, it's all the same and emotional. After all, I have no regrets for loving her too.

These few days have been really hard for me. I have to struggle really hard for test and of course to complete my skecth book. Its been 2 weeks I don't really get enough rest.

But I am glad I went through once more, what I can't go through?

But still I have to thanks Rui Chin for always motivating me and accompanying me during the blue. Although we seldom find each other but at least she used to send me text messages to encourage me.

Anyway, thanks again to her for introducing me few meaningful songs that eventually became my favorite songs.

I have been here for 4 months, and what I can tell is, people do really change, aren't they?

Good one may turns to bad one, or Bad one may turns into someone good. We don't know.

I have been going through many hard and good times alone.

Good times with friends, with brothers and sisters, sports and studies..

Or

Bad times with group members, teammates, assignments, projects and etc etc. Bad things happen for no reason sometimes, this is what we call Life.

I blog, and that makes me a blogger, but I blog what I feel.

No offense though. Peace y'all !

I shall get a good sleep after this.

Terrified

As time passes by, it proves everything.

Yes. Addicted to the song ' Would You Be There ' by Redwan Ali.
I found out the lyrics is very simple and yet it is very meaningful. Thank you to Rui Chin for the nice song that she introduced to me.
I have been listening to it all the time when I am feeling blue, I can keep listening to it again and again. Probably the song really expressed out my heart. I don't know.  

I thought this morning would be a happy sunny morning.
But I was proven wrong.
It didn't turn out to be like what I ever expected. I just don't feel good.
Time proved everything. I am no longer important to someone's heart.
Or I am not good enough for her? Or I am not a good bf to fit into her life? Or I am not a gentlemen, not caring and not anything but I am just no one than being a stranger for her?
I don't know.

My mind is playing trick with me all the time, I am confused by all sort of thinking that came into my head. I don't know what I am doing all this time worth the love that I fight?
I don't know why I am working hard is a mistake just that I put our future into account?
I don't know what she is thinking.
If only she knows everything I do, I do it for her. Sigh.

This is a very emo post. I just want to express out my feeling out into writing this post. I don't mind if you, readers leave this page. I just want to throw out everything here.

Natural & Built Environment Trip To KLCC, Filharmonik. Sky Bridge.

Trip to KLCC, Filharmonik and Sky Brigde.

We departed from Taylor's University right after our ICI Lecture finished at 11.30am and we arrived our destination at 12.30 noon an hour after that. 
Well, this trip was all about to give us inspiration for Project 2. Which is to create or to build 15cm x 15cm x 15cm spatial facade box. 
We are given a month time to sketch out of model, making a mockup model and a real presentation or final model. We have to follow strictly the concept given.
Well, it is one fun and yet challenging project. 
These are the examples of the spatial facade box.

So, these are the thing that we are going to do.

 The moment we stepped into Petronas Twin Towers, we saw this.

 Credited to PhotogMao for taking such a good pictures of this.

After wandering around the place, we went into Filharmonik. I have never been into opera hall to watch orchestra before. It was so soothing and pleasant to ear and I love that. But we're not allowed to take pictures of it.
Majestic design by the architect.

The golden corner of the main entrance. 

 The escalator is designed in a way that captured the eyes of people



 We went into the Filharmonik, and it looks like this..

After that we went up to 41st level of Petronas Twin Tower, and went to the Sky Bridge. If you guys pondering about what is that, it is actually this.

Sky Bridge where you can see almost every part of Kuala Lumpur.

Trip goes on, we went into a lot of places too, like Kinokuniya and a few shops. 

Pictures of the day :

I will work hard to fulfill my dream in the future 

and stand as tall as Petronas Twin Tower.

Not to miss any of the candid shots.

Well, it was kind of a fun trip this time. Its time to get to work in Project 2. 

Last but not least, midterms break is one week away from now.

Can't wait can't wait. I am going back to Sarawak. My lovely hometown.

Would you be there ?

It is early Saturday morning.
Weekend is here. Last week was pretty good though.

Life still goes on, Time passes by, and slowly I realized I am growing up.
Not in gaining weight, not in gaining any size or anything.
But I am growing up in thinking and hopefully I act like an adult too sooner or later.
I am eighteen.

Thinking about how my future would be..

I have been working hard. I have let those busy schedule filled up my daily life. I feel my life has no direction anymore except to achieve my goals.

I have been neglecting all friends and life seems to be dull and gray.

Sigh,.. Life is tired.

Seriously, this is an emotional post. I feel so blue right now.

I miss someone so much.

I have thousand words to say to her, and does she feels the same too?

I love her more than ever, and does she feels the same too?

Would she be there for me during my ups and downs?

Hardwork paid off !

It's really peaceful here. I am at The Norwegian Sandwich Co.
I just finished one chapter of Malaysian Studies. I am going to have my midterms test next week and I have the confident that I will it well this time.
It's simply because I believe and I work hard to achieve something. I always motivate myself to work harder and spend more time in my studies to get something good in return. 
I don't want to disappoint myself and my family. 

I will be confident and believe I can do it. I will be better and better.

 

 Its hard work that overcome everything. 

I will always remind myself to work harder each day.

Each day, every morning I will look at the mirror and tell myself what I am going to achieve today.

I believe, self-motivation is important for us to keep going and motivate ourselves to keep working hard. 

I am working hard towards my goals. I believe I can do it.

Community Service.

Life has been very fulfilling these days. 
We have to be contented and grateful that we still have parents supporting us, giving us pocket money to spend, buying us some items that we want, etc and etc. 
2 days ago, we finally did our 6 hours community service at Yayasan Sunbeams Home. 
We (Moral Project Group) had accomplished our mission at the orphanage for 6 hours after all hassles that came through the way before this in meeting such as ; arguments, re-planning activities, solving problems, transportation, budget, and so on.

From this community service, we learned a lesson. It is to " APPRECIATE ". 
It may sounds simple and understandable but not everyone can actually practicing it. I do not know about others. But to me, I learned to be contented to what I have now. I realized I have been living in a comfort life in all these 17 years, I can get almost everything that I want, I'm provided to study in such a wealthy and prestigious university in Malaysia and more.

In the orphanage, I experienced a different feeling. Everyone is living in a huge family, 85 kids range at the age of 4-16 years old and some are older that used to live in the orphanage come visiting. Everyone is very close to each others, older one may protect and taking care of the younger one. They are so independent. They wash their own shoes and socks, they have a habit of washing the plates, spoon and fork after using them, they have to collect their dry clothes and fold them by themselves, they do almost everything at a young age. I felt ashamed to compare myself with them. 

They never demand of getting anything, they wear the old clothes that have been donated by others, they eat what they have are prepared, they have never been giving any good education like us, they are home schooling, they don't have any laptob, mobile phone or anything, not even a Facebook. They never been to any shopping malls or anywhere else beside school and field for running training.
And, they never complain for what they do not have, they feel contented to what they have. Once again, I am nothing to compare myself with them. 


Few of my group members, Pei Yin, Charlotte and I went to the office to interview the person in charge. He is an indian but he is able to speak in many languages including mandarin and cantonese dialects. We all listened attentively to what he said, he is a noble person. 
He is humble in the way he talked and showed commitment to what he does. He said some kids aren't a real orphans. Some of them were abused before whether sexually, mentally, physically abused. Some of them were neglected by busy and irresponsible parents and their parents will only come and visit them once in a while, and lot more. I was on the verge of crying when my group member came and comforted me.

For the whole day, we organised some fun activities and games. We sang and danced together with the kids, we prepared some drinks and refreshment for them and of course some gifts. I still remember this boy by the named of Shaun Too, he was neglected by his parents and he loves hugging me and of course, my heart melted when he called me ' gor gor ' or in english big brother. He was happy to see me and used to stick with me the whole evening. And there is this another 11 years old girl, which refused to tell me her name. She is a very bright girl, she can speak well and fluently in both malay and english. She asked me to come and visit her again one day with present if she gets no. 1 in her class. I felt her struggle and determination through her eyes and of course I have the sense that she will be a successful person in future. Sigh..
Too much to express and to tell. What I could tell is, we all should learn to appreciate our parents and for what we have now because others might not be as lucky as us. 

Long enough I think? 
I don't want to write an essay about this. But I felt sad to leave that place but I promise one day if I success in life, I will run a charity for orphanage, single mothers and some abused child. They have rights to have a better life. They deserve it.

Picture of the day. The banner where we all do with the kids. Will update more pictures. 

Update !

Honestly, I do not know what to write here. 

So, just close this tab if you feel that you are wasting your time continuing. 

Alright. I personally feel that I spent a lot of money last month and this month too. 

First thing is, I bought a lot of materials for my assignments and project 1. And nevertheless to say, I have to buy few reference books that I have to use to improve my skills and gaining more knowledge. And those reference books ain't cheap too. And of course text books for Malaysian Studies and IELTS. It is unavoidable because we are going to use them for the whole semester. 

Each of Francis D.K Ching reference books cost RM 179.90 in MPH.

Second thing is that, I can't escape but to fulfill my personal desire of having a DSLR. But of course, it is not cheap either. Ironically, I have a digital camera which is more than enough to take a good photos but still I need one DSLR. You never knew this desire of having a good camera until when you are in photography club. I am into that one now and of course learning some skills need time. 

These are some good pictures of DSLR that I am buying, Canon Eos 550d

I am loving it to the fullest ! 

But still I will love my Olympus digital camera that has been with me all this way in my life.

I can't demand more now. I have been spending a lot. 
By the way, I am going back to my lovely hometown, Sibu, 2 weeks away from now. Guess what? 
I gonna have splendid reunion with my family and I am going to see my baby too! 
She sure miss me so much!