Maybe it is yet not the worst?

Well, how should I start this?
Too much indescribable feeling can't be voice out because I know no one would understand me.
And I losing my temper easily these days too. Sigh..
Life is like that. Why?
How would you feel when you initially feel confident about everything you do and always be the best of everything and all in a sudden you eventually feel that you are not good enough and letting most of the people over take you?

How would you feel when you feel so deep shit and no one really cares about you because they always thought you are the toughest one but yet, the most fragile one inside?
Why do I have to feel that way when everyone used to look high upon you and now people laugh or talk behind you because you failed?

I wish I can get back my spirit and confident to work on everything. How I wish I can escape problem instead of facing them and dragging the whole person of you down. How I wish, how I wish..